The Baby Dust Diaries

Image of a Fetus at 32 weeks

Posted by: Paige on: December 22, 2008

I found this pic of what my baby looks like.  Kinda.  This is a BOY…no scrotum or penis for Aellyn.

And, this is an image of how crowded she is and why I can feel her every twitch (and hiccup!)

Cookies and Cigarettes

Posted by: Paige on: December 21, 2008

Yesterday my mom and sister and I baked Christmas cookies!  I absolutely LOVE Christmas and I think baking cookies is a warm hug of christmas spirit!  We made mexican wedding cookies (snowballs), peanut butter blossoms, butter cookies, and my sister’s famous chocolate chip cookies.  It was a blast and made much easier with the awesometastic stand mixer mom and dad got me for christmas last year.  We’ve decided this year to have a christmas brunch and then just graze on cookies, summer sausage, cheese logs, and truffles for the rest of the day instead of making a dinner.  I’m going to try a sausage brunch casserole this year!  I love to cook and bake when I can be creative.  ”Making dinner” isn’t near as fun as Cooking, kwim?

Ok, cigarettes.  I have to admit I’m posting this conundrum in part to get peoples’ opinions but also because I know my cousin (Hi, CJ!) reads this blog and I’m hoping she can understand my reasoning and pass it on to the family.  I grew up in a smoke filled house.  My dad smoked like 2 packs a day.  Everyone I knew smoked cigarettes, we got “smoking section” at restaurants and, besides being in school, I was generally surrounded by cigarette smoke.  I understand that lots of people grew up this way and we all survived, right?  So this leaves people with little compassion sometimes for people who don’t want to be around second hand smoke.  But think about how things are these days.  There is no such thing as smoking sections and restaurants, there aren’t smoking sections at work anymore.  Even my friends that smoke (tsk tsk) don’t do it in the house.  If you don’t smoke these days the closest you get to second hand smoke is that smelly coworker that thinks the perfume is masking the stink (dude, it is SO not).

Second hand smoke definitely gives me a contact headache.  Even if no one is smoking in a “smoking” house the smell is so thick that a headache is an assurance.  My husband’s father died of lung cancer before he was 40.  There is alot of other types of cancer in DH’s family and he is rightly feeling that he is “high risk” and wanting to avoid carcinogens.  I have always just “handled” the smoke since it is only a few times a year at family functions.  Then we got pregnant.  Second hand smoke is very bad for a fetus obviously.  And I certainly don’t want it in my newborn’s lungs.  But, do I want it anymore in my 3 or 4 year old’s lungs?  Probably not.  

So here is my problem.  Some of my family get togethers are going to be smoking events (luckily we rent a hall for Thanksgiving and have lots of outdoor activities in the summer).  One of those is Christmas Eve.  I LOVE christmas eve.  I love to see all my cousins and aunts and uncles!  But I really just can’t justify exposing my baby to the second hand smoke.  And I KNOW how DH feels about it.  He feels absolutely no way!  I don’t have any wind in my sails to argue with him.  I personally miss my family and I worry about my daughter not getting to participate in christmas eve activities too.  :(  But I have to make a decision and we really can’t justify that exposure to her nor am I going to argue with my husband about his very real fear of cancer.  And, of course, I don’t expect anyone else to change their plans for my (minority) opinion.  We used to have christmas eve out at a restaurant and that was great.  I could also offer my house next year, which I’m thinking about.  Of course, they’ll know why I’m doing it and probably won’t be happy.  I asked my parents to be honest with why I’m not there.  I don’t really want to lie about it.  But I don’t want anyone to think I’m doing it in a snotty way either.  I’m not trying to be “high and mighty” – it is just a personal decision not to be around second hand smoke.  We have friends whose homes we don’t go to either.  We go out with them but not to their house.  

I guess that’s the story.  I just want my family to know that I miss them a christmas and my decision is not a comment on their choices.

Our Birth Plan

Posted by: Paige on: December 20, 2008

We’ve been working on our birth plan.  I didn’t include information about induction/augmentation because my primary audience is hospital personnel and not my midwives per se.  

Labor

·       I would like to have no restrictions on food or fluids during my labor.

·       I would like the freedom to move around at will.

·       Please do not offer pain medications unless I ask for them.

·       As long as the baby and I are healthy, I prefer to have no time limits on pushing. It’s important to me to push instinctively.  I do not want to be told how or when to push.

·       I would like to be encouraged to try various positions for delivery

·       I prefer to have no episiotomy and risk tearing (unless I’m having a medical emergency).

Birth

·       As long as my baby is healthy, I would like my baby placed immediately on my abdomen following the birth.  Please delay all essential routine procedures on my baby until after the bonding and breastfeeding period (i.e., bathing).

·       Please wait for the umbilical cord to stop pulsating before it is clamped.

·       Please allow my partner to cut the umbilical cord.

·       I would prefer for the placenta to be born spontaneously without the use of pitocin, and/or manual extraction.

·       I would like the option of taking home the placenta.

Post Delivery

·       We would like baby check ups to take place in our room.

·       If the baby has any problems, I would like my partner to be present with the baby at all times, if possible.

·       Please do not administer eye drops to my baby.

·       Please do not administer vitamin K to my baby.

·       I prefer any immunizations be postponed to a later time.

o   I am willing to sign a waiver for any of the above items

·      My baby will be exclusively breastfed.  

In Case of Emergency

Should I require a Cesarean Section:

·       I would like my husband to be present at all times during the c-section.

·       I would like to have contact with the baby as soon as it is possible in the delivery room.

·       I prefer to have a hand free to touch the baby.

·       Recovery:

o   If my baby is healthy, I would like to hold my baby and nurse it immediately in recovery.

·      I would like to sign any waivers necessary to permit me to be with my baby in recovery. 

Informed consent is very important to us.  Please discuss any procedures and medications with us before administration 

Vaccinations: DTaP

Posted by: Paige on: December 19, 2008

In my previous posts on vaccinations I covered my concerns with Hep B, polio and to a smaller extent MMR.  In general I believe the following illnesses to be normal parts of childhood that actually improve immune health when acquired naturally and that vaccination is pushing the diseases to older populations (see discussion on chicken pox).

  • Measles
  • Mumps
  • Rubella
  • Pertussis (whooping cough)
  • Varicella (Chicken pox)
  • Influenza

I probably won’t talk about these much more because they are in the “duh” category for me.  It is just silly to choose reactive poisons and chemicals in vaccines over non-life threatening illnesses.  If you aren’t convinced about the harm of these vaccines read more information about why fighting off infection normally makes kids healthier.

So, that leaves us these “recommended” childhood vaccinations (see the nice printable list of recommended poisons and toxins here):

These are the disease/vaccines I want to cover because they are “scary” as opposed to the benign disease listed in the first section.

Let’s start with DTaP:

DTaP is a combination vaccine that includes diptheria, tetanus, and whooping cough (pertussis, the “a” is for acellular – for some truly frightening reading look up DTP and the injuries it produced before the acellular vaccine was recommended).  Let’s take them one by one.

Pertussis

As mentioned, this is a normal childhood disease so I’m not going to spend much time on it except to say two things:  (1) the chance of death from whooping cough with medical treatment is .2%, and (2) vaccination is shown to increase, by more than double, the rate of childhood asthma.

Tetanus

Tetanus is a bacterium whose spores are found in soil.  Thus it is everywhere and you cannot ‘catch’ it from someone.  In anaerobic (no oxygen) environments it creates a toxoid that is poisonous and can cause nerve damage.  Tetanus is a big problem in 3rd world countries without good sanitation and access to medical facilities.  In the US good wound management makes it very rare.  Since tetanus is anaerobic it grows in deep and dirty wounds – often puncture or crush wounds (hence the “rusty nail” fear).  In the US if a child has a puncture of crush wound, hopefully they are going to the emergency room.  In any ER a person can be given a Tetanus Immunoglogulin (TIG) dose of antibodies to stop the spread of infection.  Since tetanus takes 3-21 days to evolve it can be almost completely avoided by immediate medical care.  

Does it sound like I’m playing with fire?  How about this.  From 1980 until today the average number of tetanus cases in the US per year was 40.  Yeah, just 40 – I’m not missing any zeros there.  And most of those were in persons over 40 (and frequently over 60 since nursing homes are a major hotbed for tetanus due to dirty conditions and bedsores) and IV drug users.  Also, cases of tetanus in children under 5 years of age totaled 2 since 1989.  Yeah, 2 in almost 20 years.  All of this information is directly from the horses (CDC’s) mouth.

Diptheria

Diptheria is also a toxin producing bacterium.  This is all numbers:  In the 1920s 100 people per 100,000 got diptheria in the US, of these 5-10% were fatal cases.  Since 1980 there are .001 cases per 100,000 and no reported deaths.  It is endemic in developing countries (hygiene, clean water, etc. could this be why?) despite vaccination efforts.  A diptheria anti-toxin is available from the CDC.

Side Effects of DTaP

DTaP has the usual list of yucky side effects as I’ve posted before.  You can search for one of the name brands to read the package insert.  One of the startling things to me is that DTaP is often THE cause of SIDS (sudden infant death syndrome):

“more than two-thirds [of studied SIDS deaths] had been vaccinated with DPT prior to death. Of these, 6.5 percent died within 12 hours of vaccination; 13 percent within 24 hours; 26 percent within three days; and 37, 61, and 70 percent within one, two, and three weeks, respectively.”

Diptheria-pertussis-tetanus (DPT) immunization: A potential cause of the sudden infant deathWC Torch - Neurology, 1982

Of course, these studies only prove “temporal” and not “causal” relationships.  You already know how I feel about that.

Vaccinations: Poem

Posted by: Paige on: December 18, 2008

Ode to National Infant Immunization Week:   Stick It

I actually don’t mind green eggs and ham.
It’s vaccines I don’t like, Uncle Sam.

Too many children have paid the price 
for harmful and deceptive immunization advice.

There is more to health than preventing infections
with dozens of toxic and dangerous injections. 

You purposefully ignore all of the parents’ cries
that autism, asthma and diabetes continue to rise. 

Since the word “safe” implies “free from harm”,
I’ll choose what’s injected into my child’s arm.

I do not want them up my nose, 
or spliced into my potatoes. 

I will not drink them in a glass. 
I will not let you stick my @$$. 

I do not want them for any reason
not even in your “worst” flu season. 

For decades now you’ve been trying to hide, 
the dangers of mercury and formaldehyde. 

You won’t do the research to try to explain
why vaccines sometime ruin a developing brain. 

Yet you tell us to just say no to drugs,
but if we question a shot you act like thugs.

Are injected monkey and fetal cells really healthy?
Or are they part of the scam that makes drug companies wealthy? 

When you ‘all lay down tonight to say your prayers,
please include all the vaccine victims listed in VAERs. 

By Ana Phylaxis

Tagalicious

Posted by: Paige on: December 17, 2008

Wishing 4 One tagged me!  She is a wonderful fellow IF sister who lives in Egypt.  Make your own north African yummies!  Check out her post on Fava beans and falafel.

The rules are:

1. Link to the person who tagged you.

2. Share 7 random and/or weird facts about you.

3. Tag 7 random people at the end, and include links to their blogs. 
  

7 Random Things About Me:

  1. I sleep with a security blanket I’ve had since I was 3 months old.
  2. I’m a shoe, purse, and umbrella junkie.  DH calls them tribbles since that is how they multiply. 
  3. I met my husband in an online trivia chat room when we got into an argument over the answer to a Star Wars question.  We got married 7 months later.
  4. I used to be a vegan but had to finally admit I love meat and dairy.  I try to make a positive environmental impact in other ways.  I usually feel guilty.
  5. One of my hobbies is writing romance novels.  Not the high brow kind – the sappy, sexy kind.  Vampires/werewolves/aliens/Highlanders preferred.
  6. I’m currently watching CSPAN, one of my secret pleasures.  Listening to Bon Jovi is another.
  7. I love oreos and milk.  I’m a dunker.  However, I do not like cookie crumbs in my milk.  So, I’m an “oreo blower.”  Much to my husband’s amusement I blow all the excess dust off an oreo, dunk it, and then blow/shake off any additional crumbs before dunking again.

I tag:

I hereby tag all the ladies of the Nov/Dec Cyclesistas!  Take a moment this holiday season to NOT think about infertility!  Tell us about yourself!

Found a Pediatrician!

Posted by: Paige on: December 16, 2008

Yesterday was such a good day!  We had an appointment in the morning with Dr. Lavin of Advanced Pediatrics in Beachwood, Ohio.  He was wonderful and our search is finally over!  I told him my primary concern was having a doctor who was willing to work with us even if we didn’t vaccinate.  He at first talked about MMR and autism (which I’m realizing most people see as the “reason” people don’t vax).  His studies, which he had typed up into a report, show that autism is completely out of hand but NOT being caused by the MMR vaccine.  He cited a Denmark study, I’ll try to find it.  However, I told him that the MMR/autism link was not my reason for not vaxing but that I honestly believe people *should* get measles, mumps, and rubella.  He agreed.  We talked about Chicken pox and how we were throwing nature out of balance with the vaccine.  He agreed.  I said my infant does not need Hep B.  He agreed.  Overall it was a great conversation.  He said he tries not to be a slave to a certain ideology and that his job was to give me information so that I could do my job of making the best decisions for my daughter!  We also talked about our IVF experience and he totally “got” it.  This is important to me.  When I tell someone that it took us 9 years to get where we are I want them to see how that might effect our decisions.  He acknowledged how special our little girl was going to be!

And boy is she special.  We got to see her again at our ultrasound yesterday afternoon.  We got to see her face and her little hands.  She had a full bladder and then she peed and we saw it!  It was so cute!  LOL.  I’ll post pics as soon as I can scan them.  I also had a non-stress test which I’ll get every week from now on.  I think that is overkill for gestational diabetes but I’m playing nice so I can stay with the midwives.  Baby is firmly head down but her legs are all bent up so I’m not getting rib kicks at all.  Of course I can’t breathe at all.  I have to lean my seat back in the car to be able to breathe!  8 more weeks!  She said they don’t like to let GD patients go past their due date.  I’ve decided not to argue now, we’ll see how it goes.  If it comes down to induction I’ll take in some studies about the lack of improved outcomes with induction for GD and plead my case then.  I feel like I am walking a tight line between being the pushy patient and staying with the midwives.  I DO NOT WANT THE OBs TO DELIVER MY BABY!  That is goal #1.  Goal #2 is anything relating to Aellyn after she’s born – no vit K, no eye drops, no hepB vaccine, etc.  So I’m convincing myself that my “birth experience” take the #3 slot.  I need to let some of that go and focus on what really matters.

I got tagged by Wishing for One!  I love getting tagged and I’ll work on that next.

Vaccinations: Junkies and Hookers in Diapers

Posted by: Paige on: December 13, 2008

My past vaccine posts have been long (sorry) and time consuming for me because I try to have references and data.  For this one, I want to just appeal to your basic logic.  That doesn’t mean that there aren’t numbers and research behind this one too…look it up!

Hepatitis B is the first vaccination the CDC wants you to give your baby…at 12 hours old.  Yes, I said hours.  Wow, this must be an important one!  A terrible disease in infants killing by the tens of thousands!

Nope.  Actually Hep B is a blood borne illness passed primarily through high-risk sexual behaviors and sharing dirty needles.  The largest risk to infants is catching it from mom.  Mom’s that are Hep B+ (and they would know since STD testing during pregnancy is routine) then maybe you need this vaccine.  Otherwise you only need this vaccine if:

  1. You are an aspiring crack whore*
  2. You love the smack
  3. You plan on pimping out your new infant (hey, the economy sucks, right?)
  4. You firmly believe in hiring drug addicts as babysitters
  5. You believe that babies learn reflexes best when dodging dirty hypodermic needles

*note:  being a crack whore has the added benefit of insuring you will never be infertile!

“But why not?” you say.  What’s the harm?  According to the Vaccine Adverse Events Reporting System, the following have been reported for the Hepatitis B vaccine only:

 
   
Event Category  
 Count   Percent (of 37,644)
Death      640                    1.70%
Life Threatening     747 1.98%
Permanent Disability     942 2.50%
Hospitalized   2,808 7.46%
Hospitalized, Prolonged     182 0.48%
Emergency Room 14,043 37.30%
Not Serious 33,388 88.69% 

These numbers are estimated to represent, according to the CDC, 1-10% of actual cases since 1990.  

Vaccinations: Polio Paralyzes Kids

Posted by: Paige on: December 12, 2008

“If you get polio you will be paralyzed.”

Someone said this to me tonight.  This isn’t an ignorant person and they weren’t trying to convince me that this statement is true.  As with most people we have been convinced of 2 things:  (1) that polio was miraculously cured by a vaccine, and (2) before the vaccine, polio was a horrible epidemic of nature that nearly always meant paralyzation.  This (along with smallpox) is often touted as the star attraction in the Hall of Fame of Why Vaccines Are Your Friends.  So, is it true?  If we stop vaccinating against polio will children once again be in iron lungs and leg braces?

Let’s look at both premises on which we base our fear of Polio.

(1) Polio was miraculously cured by a vaccine.

picture-55The chart on the left shows the CDC’s information on the Polio Disease and Vaccination from the CDC Pink Book on Vaccine Preventable Diseases.  As you can see from this chart the vaccine has saved us! Look at all those cases!  Look how modern medicine erradicated this terrible epidemic from the American Landscape!  

Excuse me while I barf.

(You will really be sick if you click on the link above and read that 95% of polio cases since 1980 were categorized as VAPP – Vaccine Associated Paralytic Polio.  This was with the Oral Polio Vaccine that my mother’s generation were given in school.  Now we use Inactivated Polio Vaccine which is an injection.  But remember, vaccines are safe.  But I digress.)

Is the CDC giving us the whole picture?  Let’s look at where polio was before 1950 since we can assume it didn’t appear out of thin air on January 1, 1950.

us-poliorates-1912-19701The above graph lets us look back to 1912.  As you can see, the disease had two peaks one in 1916 and another between 1945 and 1955.  This graph certainly shows that the disease rate went down after the vaccine but what had made it go up so much in the years prior to the vaccine?  Hmmm…doesn’t that coincide in some way with WWI and WWII?  What else was going on that would bring on disease?

A doctor named Biskind heretically postulated a different cause.  The following chart show’s polio cases with timing of organochlorine pesticide use (DDT, PCB, etc.) – click on the chart to enlarge.pol12-702

Strangely enough, Biskind pointed out that what this study confirms  (Physiological Investigations Into The Action Of DDT, G.W. Van Der Wiel & Co., Arnhem 1949):  that DDT poisoning often causes polio-like physiology.   Coincidence?  What happened in 1983 when DDT was once again allowed in US use?  - click on the chart to enlarge.

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Major increase in polio cases in what is called the “post-polio” era since this epidemic in the 80s occurred in previous polio patients who should have been “immune” but were re-infected due to environmental exposure.  So, did the polio vaccine result in the dramatic recovery from the 1945 polio epidemic?  Or, was that the phase out of harmful pesticides like DDT?

(2) Polio was a horrible epidemic of nature

This brings us to point #2.  One doctor, Dr. Morton Biskind postulated in the 50s that the increase in “polio-like” illnesses were due to DDT poisoning and not the polio virus (virus X).  A virus of course can not be caused by an environmental substance (contrary to what your mother told you – you can NOT get a cold (virus) from not wearing a hat!).  If all the polio cases were caused by the polio virus then DDT couldn’t be causing it.  However, people were rarely tested for the polio virus because only virus-polio would be covered financially so cases were diagnosed by symptoms (clinical diagnosis) and not lab diagnosis.  It is probable that President Roosevelt did not have polio but an immune disorder called Guillain-Barre (a notorious vaccine side effect).   Historically, the polio virus was very benign dating back to ancient Egypt.  The 20th century brought the first ever epidemics of the disease.   

But, the mortality rate of polio is atrocious, right?  According to the CDC Pink Book more than 95% of all polio cases are asymptotic - you wouldn’t even know you have it.  4-8% have general flu-like symptoms that last one week with complete recovery.  1-2% experience neck and back stiffness and recover completely in 7-10 days.  Less than 1% experience asymmetrical paralysis lasting days to weeks with full recovery.  Of this 1% most make a full recovery, some will remain paralyzed and 2-5% will die.  That’s 2-5% of the 1% that have paralytic polio and do not recover fully.  This means that 99.5% of all people with viral polio will make a full recovery, with 95% being asymptotic.  Hardly “polio paralyzes you.”  And remember these numbers are based on historical morbidity and mortality which includes the high incidence epidemics of the 20th century that may not have been viral polio at all but similar symptoms caused by pesticide poisoning.

The graphs used so far are pulled from a very detailed explanation on this site.  If you want more information please check it out.  I haven’t even touched on the effects of contamination involving a monkey virus called SV40 that infected polio vaccines.  Read about it here.

The CDC recommends the first polio vaccine for this horrible, deadly disease for infants of only 8 weeks old. It contains 3 types of ‘inactivated’ polio viruses, neomycin, streptomycin, and polymyxin B, formaldehyde, and 2-phenoxyethanol, and a continuous line of monkey kidney cells.  Side effects, as reported by the manufacturer include:

 Erythema,induration and pain occurred in 3.2%, 1% and 13%, respectively, of vaccinees within 48 hours post-vaccination. Temperatures of ≥ 39°C (≥ 102°F) were reported in 38% of vaccinees. Other symptoms included irritability, sleepiness, fussiness, and crying …  Although no causal relationship has been established, deaths have occurred in temporal association after vaccination of infants with IPV.37

Foray Into Homeopathy

Posted by: Paige on: December 11, 2008

***Canyonlands NP in Utah is the most beautiful place on Earth.  Take a minute to tell our leaders we don’t want oil companies plundering this land!***

I’ve always been intrigued by homeopathic medicine.  My doctor growing up was open minded enough to offer homeopathic remedies from time to time  (he also wrote a bible verse on a prescription pad for my dad, lol).  I’ve been reading about homeopathic remedies for children since studies show that cold meds are terrible for them.  Well I’ve been researching homeopathy for gestational diabetes and I think I’m going to try chromium supplementation.  Mainstream medicine doesn’t spend much time on homeopathic remedies but I did find this great study about chromium for GD.  

My numbers have actually been great.  Fasting numbers in the mid 80s, most post-meal numbers between 95-110.  I just DO NOT want to need insulin since I’m sure that would bump me to the OBs.  

We are scheduled for a ultrasound on Monday and meeting with the OB and then our midwife.  I’m going to ask some pointed questions about reducing interventions in spite of the GD.  I really want to only intervene if evidence exists of a problem.  Sometimes to “err on the side of caution” GD mothers are induced or even scheduled for a c-section.  I would do those things but only if there is an identifiable problem with the baby.  I also don’t want electronic fetal monitoring during labor unless absolutely necessary since this will keep me out of the labor pool and tied to the bed.

We also have an appointment with a pediatrician Monday morning.  I got a recommendation from the ladies at Mothering.com message boards (aka “crunchy” mama land) to try Dr. Lavin at Advanced Pediatrics for a no-vax friendly doc.  I was excited to see that “In order to provide our patients the best uninfluenced information that science has to offer, we do not accept samples of drugs, advertising tchotchkes, money, food, or any item from outside vendors.”  I’m really hopeful that he will make a great choice for us (even if he is 45 minutes away).  It will certainly be a relief to have that out of the way!

Oh by the way, I’m 31 FREAKING WEEKS PREGNANT!  Holy crap!  I can’t believe it!!!  It is downright surreal.  It definitely feels like it is going fast now.  SOOOO much to do!  Being on bed rest the house is a mess.  I hope that “nesting instinct” kicks in soon!  Right now my “getting as much sleep as possible” instinct has taken over!

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